Throw Me A Lifeline
"For he took away the alters of the strange gods, and the high places, and brake down the images, and cut down the groves : and commanded Judah to seek the Lord God of their fathers, and to do the law and the commandment." 2 Chronicles 14 : 3-4 (KJV)
Lately I've been feeling slightly disconnected from God and I'll be honest - I haven't been placing Him as my focus. Lately I've done some things I once promised myslef I'd never do and as I did so my thought process was affected. It worries me that lately I've been thinking more about everything other than God. I've even lost the inspiration to write poetry. My school work has been affected and my prayer life has been too. I'm still on the church choir but sometimes my heart hasn't been in it. For the first time in ages I was actually self-conscious about worshipping in the choir. I made a decision to change this and oddly enough it was a video for Mercy Ministries that was shown in church that really hit home (Mercy is a ministry that helps young women rise up above their circumstances). The song playing in the video was Brooke Fraser's "Lifeline." The first thing I did when I got the chance was to get a hold of the song and listen to it. Over and over and over again I played it and prayed. I squeezed all the bad that had saturated me and soaked up some of God's love. There is something very powerful about submitting one's self to God totally. Just coming into His presence and saying "God I'm not perfect but I want to live for you and serve you" can make all the difference. I recommited myself and my spirit was lifted.
Over the past 5 weeks I've been procrastinating with regards to my homework. I've glanced at my assignments and thought to myself that I could never live up to the standard I'd set for myself in my previous semester's work. I completely lost myself in fear that I would not do as well as I had last semester. This spiritual cleansing over the past week has restored my focus and my resolve. Last night I put my favourite worship songs on and sat down to work on my first assignment in ages. I got it done and I think it's a top notch effort on my part. I'm not going to run to God only when I'm in trouble and I can't keep it inside when He's blessed me so much. I have to shout it to the world. I feel so incredibly blessed that He is a merciful God who keeps no record of our sins. Just like in the song, I want to "re-acquaint my knees with the carpet" and soften my heart before God. I'm rambling on aren't I? Well this is theraputic for me so feel free to skip over it if you wish.
Looking back I'm thinking about how well I was going with my Bible reading. I read all of Judges and Ruth and I was starting on 2 Samuel when I stopped not too long ago. I'm starting it up again because I've been getting convicted quite powerfully by these books. Very often we tend to focus on the Gospels and the Bible stories we're familiar with and we forget about the rest of the Bible. Reading through Judges was an eye-opener and I have to go over it again to grasp all my thoughts on it. (If anyone would like to help me pull apart Judges feel free to email me.) I love my Bible and I don't want it to sit on my shelf collecting dust. I wanted to start a Bible fellowship and I think it's about time I did it. Would be interesting to have a small group of people read the same verses, pray about it and then bring their different revelations to the group. (Anyone interested?) God has a mighty big plan for all of us as individuals and I want to get myself and people I know closer to their destiny. It's about time I took responsibility - I'm no longer a baby Christian and I can't rely on past revelations and experiences. I want a fresh awakening on a daily basis. I'm maturing as a person and as a believer and for the lack of wanting to slip backwards, I'm going to press on. Ah, there is hope yet for us all.
"Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3 : 13-14
Lately I've been feeling slightly disconnected from God and I'll be honest - I haven't been placing Him as my focus. Lately I've done some things I once promised myslef I'd never do and as I did so my thought process was affected. It worries me that lately I've been thinking more about everything other than God. I've even lost the inspiration to write poetry. My school work has been affected and my prayer life has been too. I'm still on the church choir but sometimes my heart hasn't been in it. For the first time in ages I was actually self-conscious about worshipping in the choir. I made a decision to change this and oddly enough it was a video for Mercy Ministries that was shown in church that really hit home (Mercy is a ministry that helps young women rise up above their circumstances). The song playing in the video was Brooke Fraser's "Lifeline." The first thing I did when I got the chance was to get a hold of the song and listen to it. Over and over and over again I played it and prayed. I squeezed all the bad that had saturated me and soaked up some of God's love. There is something very powerful about submitting one's self to God totally. Just coming into His presence and saying "God I'm not perfect but I want to live for you and serve you" can make all the difference. I recommited myself and my spirit was lifted.
Over the past 5 weeks I've been procrastinating with regards to my homework. I've glanced at my assignments and thought to myself that I could never live up to the standard I'd set for myself in my previous semester's work. I completely lost myself in fear that I would not do as well as I had last semester. This spiritual cleansing over the past week has restored my focus and my resolve. Last night I put my favourite worship songs on and sat down to work on my first assignment in ages. I got it done and I think it's a top notch effort on my part. I'm not going to run to God only when I'm in trouble and I can't keep it inside when He's blessed me so much. I have to shout it to the world. I feel so incredibly blessed that He is a merciful God who keeps no record of our sins. Just like in the song, I want to "re-acquaint my knees with the carpet" and soften my heart before God. I'm rambling on aren't I? Well this is theraputic for me so feel free to skip over it if you wish.
Looking back I'm thinking about how well I was going with my Bible reading. I read all of Judges and Ruth and I was starting on 2 Samuel when I stopped not too long ago. I'm starting it up again because I've been getting convicted quite powerfully by these books. Very often we tend to focus on the Gospels and the Bible stories we're familiar with and we forget about the rest of the Bible. Reading through Judges was an eye-opener and I have to go over it again to grasp all my thoughts on it. (If anyone would like to help me pull apart Judges feel free to email me.) I love my Bible and I don't want it to sit on my shelf collecting dust. I wanted to start a Bible fellowship and I think it's about time I did it. Would be interesting to have a small group of people read the same verses, pray about it and then bring their different revelations to the group. (Anyone interested?) God has a mighty big plan for all of us as individuals and I want to get myself and people I know closer to their destiny. It's about time I took responsibility - I'm no longer a baby Christian and I can't rely on past revelations and experiences. I want a fresh awakening on a daily basis. I'm maturing as a person and as a believer and for the lack of wanting to slip backwards, I'm going to press on. Ah, there is hope yet for us all.
"Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3 : 13-14
posted by Maz | Tuesday, August 15, 2006
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